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Elegy for the Dynamic Diva
For the version of me who once blazed like fire You were a force. Bright, untamed, always in motion. You knew how to turn heads, light...

Joy Holmes
20 hours ago1 min read
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The Quiet Way I Kiss the World
I don’t go out much. I don’t date right now .And yet, I am wildly, wordlessly queer. You won’t see me holding hands with a woman in a...

Joy Holmes
2 days ago1 min read
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I Want to Want It, But I Don’t
Unpartnered on Purpose I used to think I wanted a relationship. A real one. The kind with Sunday mornings and shared meals and inside...

Joy Holmes
4 days ago2 min read
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Quieter, But Not Quenched: Why I Don’t Talk As Much Anymore—and Why That’s Not a Loss
There was a time when I always had something to say. Politics, religion, the state of the world—I had opinions, and I made sure they were...

Joy Holmes
4 days ago2 min read
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From Isolation to Connection: How I Found the True Spirit of Christ
During one of the most confusing and vulnerable seasons of my life, I was deceived by what I now believe was a malevolent spirit. It...

Joy Holmes
May 72 min read
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Being Single Is Not a Consolation Prize: Embracing the Beauty of Solitude
In a world that constantly sells us the idea that romantic love is the ultimate prize, it can be easy to see singleness as a waiting...

Joy Holmes
May 12 min read
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Not a Side Character: Reclaiming the Divine Feminine in My Faith
For a long time, I felt like a side character in the story of Christianity—needed but not central, welcomed but not essential. The...

Joy Holmes
Apr 232 min read
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Learning to Let Go of the Need to “Be Productive” All the Time
For most of my life, I measured my worth by what I could accomplish. The tasks I checked off, the roles I fulfilled, the way I could hold...

Joy Holmes
Apr 192 min read
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My Favorite YouTube Channel for Intentional Living
I’ve been in a season of craving calm—not just in my schedule or surroundings, but in what I take in. Lately, fiction feels too heavy, TV...

Joy Holmes
Apr 92 min read
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When Life Speeds Up in the Best Way
For a long time, I thought my life was going to slow down. After receiving a diagnosis of schizophrenia, I imagined the rest of my days...

Joy Holmes
Mar 302 min read
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What If Romans 12:2 Is About Diet Culture, Too?
For as long as I can remember, I’ve been told—both subtly and loudly—that smaller is better. That a thinner body is a holier body. That...

Joy Holmes
Mar 293 min read
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I Thought I Needed a Business—Turns Out I Needed Breathing Room
For a while, I felt this deep need to create something of my own. I had the name, the website, the drive. I wanted to offer proofreading...

Joy Holmes
Mar 282 min read
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What Single Living Has Taught Me About Space and Peace
For a long time, I thought being single meant being alone. But what I’ve discovered in this season of my life is that single living isn’t...

Joy Holmes
Mar 283 min read
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Why I’m Not Reading Fiction Right Now (And That’s Okay)
For a long time, I felt like I should be reading fiction. It felt like something good, something enriching, something I used to love....

Joy Holmes
Mar 272 min read
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You Are Special to God (Without Being Superior): Embracing Personal Love Without Guilt
Recently, I had a personal spiritual experience that left me feeling uniquely loved and seen by God. It was one of those moments where...

Joy Holmes
Mar 222 min read
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When I Misunderstood Where God Was Leading Me
This morning, during my quiet time with Jesus, I realized something I hadn’t seen before. Years ago, I misunderstood the signs God was...

Joy Holmes
Mar 211 min read
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When God Pulls a Divine Switcheroo: Trusting the Unexpected Turns
Have you ever felt like you were sure about where God was leading you, only for Him to quietly change the destination? I call it the...

Joy Holmes
Mar 202 min read
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Life Beyond the Label: How God Showed Me a Fuller Story
When I was first diagnosed with schizophrenia, I felt like my life had suddenly been divided in two: before and after . I pictured my...

Joy Holmes
Mar 193 min read
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From a Whisper to a Song: Following God’s Gentle Nudges
Lately, something unexpected has been stirring in my heart: the guitar. It has been years since I’ve seriously thought about playing...

Joy Holmes
Mar 192 min read
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Escaping Behavior Modification: How I Found Freedom on the Narrow Path
Yesterday, I binged The Wheel of Time Season 1, and it was just as good as I remembered—maybe even better. I found myself picking up...

Joy Holmes
Mar 172 min read
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